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I had visions, I was in them

I was looking into the mirror

To see a little bit clearer

The rottenness and evil in me



Fingertips have memories

And I can't forget the curves of your body

And when I feel a bit naughty

I run it up the flagpole and see

Who salutes, but no-one ever does



I'm not sick, but I'm not well

And I'm so hot, cos I'm in hell



Been around the world and found that only stupid people are breeding

The cretins cloning and feeding

And I don't even own a TV



Put me in the hospital for nerves and then they had to commit me

You told them all I was crazy

They cut off my legs, now I'm an amputee

God damn you



I'm not sick, but I'm not well

And I'm so hot, cos I'm in hell



I'm not sick, but I'm not well

And it's a sin, to look so well



I want to publish scenes

And rage against machines

I wanna pierce my tongue, it doesn't hurt it feels fine

But you don't look so fine

I'd like to turn off time

To kill my mind

To kill my mind



Paranoia, paranoia

Everybody's coming to get me

Just say you never met me

I'm running underground with the moles

Digging in holes



Hear the voices in my head, I swear to god it sounds like they're snoring

But if you're bored, then you're boring

The agony and the irony, they're killing me



I'm not sick, but I'm not well

And I'm so hot, cos I'm in hell



I'm not sick, but I'm not well

And it's a sin, to look this well

"If Only Tonight We Could Sleep"



If only tonight we could sleep

In a bed made of flowers

If only tonight we could fall

In a deathless spell



If only tonight we could slide

Into deep black water

And breathe

And breathe...



Then an angel would come

With burning eyes like stars

And bury us deep

In his velvet arms



And the rain would cry

As our faces slipped away

And the rain would cry



Don't let it end...

Is it safe to look within

And erase all that's been

And all that's been between

Is it gone tell me what went wrong

'cause baby i'm not that strong



And i'm walking wounded

All alone, all alone



Are you comfortable and numb

Did they all succumb to all those lies

Does it satisfy the greed

Is it all you need

Is it all you want

'cause baby i'm not that strong



And I'm walking wounded

All alone

And baby i'm not that strong

And i'm walking wounded a

All alone , all alone





How does it feel

How does it feel



How does it feel

How does it feel



If your memories do stray

Then they betray all that's past

And all that's been between

Is it gone tell me what went wrong

'cause baby i'm not that strong



And i'm walking wounded

All alone,

And baby i'm not that strong

And i'm walking wounded

All allone , alll alone



How does it feel

How does it feel



How does it feel

How does it feel



How does it feel

How does it feel



How does it feel

How does it feel

Where did you go to

It's not what you told me

You'd think with the lies it would change

And everyone else they're

Running in circles

Trying so hard not to change

You take it with the bad

You take it with the good

I'd give it all to you if I knew that I could

So when I'm crying baby

Can you see my tears



Where did you go to

Its not what you told me

You'd think with the lies it would change

Everyone else they're

Running in circles

Walking around in a daze



Where did you go to

Its not what you told me

You'd think with the lies it would change

Every where else they're

Running in circles

Trying so hard not to change

And honey I'm amazed

I'm simply amazed

Yes I am



So when I'm crying baby

Can you see my tears



And watching the sunrise

Deep in my soul

I felt it in your eyes

I'd have to be a fool

Not to realise

I strain to see

Through your clouds of calamity

If not for me

You'd be living a reality



So when I'm crying, baby

Can you see my tears

You've Been looking for god

You've been down on your knees

Will the Angels believe you now?

Wanting more than the bliss of a buetiful kiss

from the lips of the one who fell

well its hard to tell...



Its like an opium dream

through your psyche it streams

it relieves and believes the painthat you fought in vain

oh no....please don't

wave goodbye, wave goodbye



because your sleeping tonight

sleeping tonight

safe in the arms of morpheus



you've escaped through these means these delirious dreams

helped to shelter an sooth your soul

the regrettable roles

the salvation they sold

satisfied your desire to burn

and now you've learned?

oh no....please don't

wave goodbye, wave goodbye



because your sleeping tonight

sleeping tonight

safe in the arms of morpheus



and were waving goodbye

you're sleeping tonight

safe in the arms of morpheus

I had the pleasure of speaking to CauzDeChin this early morning. We talked about his band Lunatic for a bit and he sent me a few of their songs ... I aksed him to translate the song Niki for me as most of the songs are in Romanian (or whatever the offical languag is there ... it is a very sad and sweet song ... I decided to post them here ... I think if given the chance alot of people would really like their music ... Thank you again Cristi for the nice chat and for sharing your music with me, it was great getting to know you....





I’m sleeping on a cloud

I sleep and in my dream

I hear the wards, that u never toled me..

I want to see u, I want to touch u

I want to see u, I want to touch u

in your arms to turn off my pain

I want to see u I want to touch u

I want to tell u that I’ll never lie to u again

And I know that the night hurts when the morning comes

And dreams are broken, I still can make u flyyyyyyyyy.....

I’m runing whithout shoes, an pices of heaven

I run on the fields with iron grass

Only to see u

Only to touch u

In your arms to turn of the pain

And I know that the night hurts when morning comes

And dreams are broken

I still can make u flyyyyyyy.

To fly

tam

tam

Fllyyyyyyyyyyy

Fllyyyyyyyyyyy

Fllyyyyyyyyyyy

Fllyyyyyyyyyyy

Fllyyyyyyyyyyy

My love

Fllyyyyyyyyyyy

Fllyyyyyyyyyyy

My sweet love

To the sky

They also did a remake of Tea Party's Psychopomp ... one word .... AWESOME!!! >;^}



"Psychopomp"



You wanted this

So sad to see

The sweet decay

Of ecstasy



And you want it all



A frozen sun,

Will guide you there

As shadows hide

The deep despair



I'll give you something more

And you'll fade away

One last kiss before

You fade away.



So sleep tonight,

In idle dreams

The pain will drown,

Your silent screams



And you want it all



I'll give you something more

And you'll fade away

One last kiss before

You fade away

Lives you once adored

will fade away

Lies you can't ignore

You soon repay

As you fade away

There is one thing that my daughter and I share a deep love for, and that is lyrics to songs. They hold deep meanings for us. So when a song comes along that we both relate to in different yet the same ways, it means a lot to me.



There is one song in particular that since the first time I heard it, held a very special meaning to me, and I don't think my daughter realizes that the way in which the song touches her and reminds her of our past (her's and my relationship) it touches me the same way, I knew when I heard it how she would hear it as well, how it would remind her of me, and my not always being there for her. Until tonight we never spoke about it, but when I went to see her and take her to her choir recital tonight we had some time to blow so her sisters were playing some songs and they told me that when this song comes on she says it reminds her of me and it makes her cry .. the thing is I know and understand why. The only thing I can say to you baby is that I am sorry, I can't relive the past, I can't make up for time lost, nor the lonely nights, but I can let you know that I was just as lonely and missing and needing you. I only hope one day you can forgive me for the past ...







Hey Dad I'm writing to you

Not to tell you, that I still hate you

Just to ask you how you feel

And how we fell apart how this fell apart



Are you happy out there in this great wide world?

Do you think about your sons?

Do you miss your little girl?

When you lay your head down how do you sleep at night?

Do you even wonder if we're all right?



We're alright

We're alright



It's been a long hard road without you by my side

Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried?

You broke my mother's heart, you broke your children for life

It's not OK but we're alright

I remember the days you were a hero in my eyesBut those were just a long lost memory of mine

I spent so many years learning how to survive

Now I'm writing just to let you know that I'm still alive



The days I spent so cold, so hungry, were full of hate

I was so angry, the scars run deep inside this tattooed body

There's things I'll take to my grave, but I'm OK, I'm OK



It's been a long hard road without you by my side



Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried?

You broke my mother's heart, you broke your children for life

It's not OK but we're alright

I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes

But those were just a long lost memory of mine

I spent so many years learning how to survive

Now I'm writing just to let you know that I'm still alive



And sometimes I forgive, yeah and this time I'll admit

That I miss you, said I miss you



It's been a long hard road without you by my side

Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried?

You broke my mother's heart, you broke your children for life

It's not OK but we're alright

I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes

But those were just a long lost memory of mine

I spent so many years learning how to survive

Now I'm writing just to let you know that I'm still alive



And sometimes I forgive, yeah and this time I'll admit

That I miss you, said I miss you...hey Dad

The song played in my mind for the last year, since the album came out .. something that I'd contemplated for so long trying to sdecided what to do with my life and when i fianlly realized my marriage was over, the song in my mind all along trying to figure out what to say or when ... for months I've sat here collecting letters, trying to decided ... as you've seen, last night, I decided finally what to say .. today I typed up the papers, tomorrow or the next i send them off ...





The Truth



So here we are

We are alone

There's weight on your mind

I wanna know

The truth

If this is how you feel

Say it to me

If this was ever real



[Chorus:]

I want the truth

From you

Give me the truth

Even if it hurts me

I want the truth

From you

Give me the truth

Even if it hurts me



I want the truth



So this is you

You talking to me

You found a million ways to let me down

So I'm not hurt when you're not around

I was blind

But now I see

This is how you feel

Say it to me

If this was ever real



[Chorus]



I know that this will break me

I know that this might make me cry

You gotta say what's on your mind, on your mind

I know that this will hurt me

And break my heart and soul inside

But I don't wanna live this life



[Chorus]



I don't care no more, no

Just give me the truth

Give me the truth

Cuz I don't care no more

Give me the truth

Cuz I don't care no more, no

Just give me the truth

Give me the truth

Give me the truth

Give me the truth

Give me the truth

Cuz I don't care no more, no

How I feel now ...



Lost and broken

Hopeless and lonely

Smiling on the outside

Hurt beneath my skin



My eyes are fading

My soul is bleeding

I'll try to make it seem okay

But my faith is wearing thin



So help me heal these wounds

They've been open for way too long

Help me fill this soul

Even though this is not your fault



But I'm open

And I'm bleeding

All over your brand new rug

And I need someone to help me sew them up



I only wanted a magazine

I only wanted a movie screen

I only wanted the life I'd read about and dreamed



And now my mind is an open book

And now my heart is an open wound

And now my life is an open soul for all to see



But help me heal these wounds

They've been open for way too long

Help me fill this soul

Even though this is not your fault



That I'm open and I'm bleeding

All over your brand new rug

And I need someone to help me

So you come along

I push you away

Then kick and scream for you to stay

Cuz I need someone to help me

Oh I need someone to help me

To help me heal these wounds

They've been open for way too long

Help me fill this soul

Even though this is not your fault



That I'm open

And I'm bleeding

All over your brand new rug

And I need someone to help me sew them

I need someone to help me fill them

I need someone to help me close them up

(I miss you, I miss you)

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare

The shadow in the background of the morgue

The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley

We can live like Jack and Sally if we want

Where you can always find me

We'll have Halloween on Christmas

And in the night we'll wish this never ends

We'll wish this never ends



(I miss you, I miss you)

(I miss you, I miss you)



Where are you and I'm so sorry

I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight

I need somebody and always

This sick strange darkness

Comes creeping on so haunting every time

And as I stared I counted

Webs from all the spiders

Catching things and eating their insides

Like indecision to call you

and hear your voice of treason

Will you come home and stop this pain tonight

Stop this pain tonight



Don't waste your time on me you're already

The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)

Don't waste your time on me you're already

The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)

[x3]



(I miss you, I miss you) [x4]

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away

I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain



‘Cause I’m broken when I'm open

And I don’t feel like i am strong enough

'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonsome

And i don't feel rite when your gone away



You're gone away; You don't feel me here anymore



The worst is over now and we can breathe again

I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away

There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain



‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open

And I don’t feel like I am strong enough

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome

And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away



‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open

And I don’t feel like I am strong enough

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome

And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away



‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome

And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away



You're gone away; You don't feel me here anymore.

I have this affliction for words .. I love lyrics to songs ... One of my favorite bands who's lyrics I throughly enjoy is Savatage ... what follows happen to be a few of my favorite songs, not just for the music it's self, but for the actual words of the songs ...

Hey there you

Way out there in the distance

Can you hear me

Are you there



I know it's late

So please forgive my persistence

But I'm hanging

Do you care



So lay back

Call off the attack

Cause if you look deep

Dreams are nothing that I lack

And all I seek

A final chance to speak

And I would let the whole thing keep

If I could just sleep



Hey there you

Way out there could you show me

Just a signal

Or a sign

That after all

All these years that you've known me

And I'm not just killing time



So lay back

Call off the attack

Cause if you look deep

Dreams are nothing that I lack

And all I seek

A final chance to speak

But I would let the whole thing keep

If I could just sleep



As I lay there late at night

Building castles in the air

Out of alibis and all those little lies

And then I look inside

And pray that I don't care



I don't care



I don't care



Hey there you way out there in the distance

I dont know where the years have gone

Memories can only last so long

Like faded photographs, forgotten songs

And the things I never knew

When the skin is thin, the heart shows through

Please believe me what I tell you is true

Wheres the light, turn then on again

One more night to believe and then

Another note for my requiem

A memory to carry on

The storys over when the crowds are gone

All my friends have been crucified

They made life a long suicide true

Guess we never figured out the rules

But Im still alive and my fingers feel

Im gonna play on till the final reels through

And read the credits from a different view

Wheres the lights, turn them on again

One more night to believe and then

Another note for my requiem

A memory to carry on

The storys over when the crowds are gone

When the crowds are gone

And Im all alone

Playing a final song

Now that the lights are gone

Turn them on again

One more time for me my friend

Turn them on again

I never wanted to know

Never wanted to see

I wasted my time till time wasted me

Never wanted to go

Always wanted to stay

Cause the person I am are the parts that I play

So I play and I plan

And hope and I scheme

To the lure of a night

Filled with unfinished dreams

And Im holding on tight

To a world gone astray

As they charge me for years

I can no longer pay

And the lights

Turn them off my friend

And the ghosts

Well just let them in

Cause in the dark

Its easier to see

Listen to me children of the night

Beyond the doors of darkness you will find

A thousand worlds for you to see here

Take my hand and follow me, oh



Beyond the doors of the dark

Demon in your heart

Scream and thrash your head

Turn around now you're dead

Under the darkened haze

Lost here in glaze

Are you looking to be free

A never ending suicide

Of nightmares you have inside



Another day's begun

Under the moon and sun

Circle has been drawn

Life has been prolonged

Hell is eternity

Hell is your destiny

I'll tell you to die

A never ending suicide

Of nightmares you have inside



Oh, beyond the doors of the dark yeah

Beyond the doors of the dark

Oh yeah



It's time to meet your fate

Heaven can wait

All the walls are closing in

Things crawl on your skin

He's grabbing down at you

There's nothing you can do

No place to run and hide



A never ending suicide

Of nightmares you have inside



He wants to take your soul

You know you're dreaming

Call your precious little life under my knife

Hell is eternity

Hell is your destiny

I'll tell you to die



Never ending suicide

Of nightmares you have inside

Beyond the doors of the dark

Beyond the doors of the dark

Oh yeah

Beyond the doors of the dark

Beyond the doors of the dark

Oh yeah

No no

And so I sit here in the dark

You made the rules I played the part

I never rushed or pushed my fate

When time was tight I knew to wait

And circumstance

So well disguised

Within a gathering of lies

And in the dark I lie awake

So I can watch you drive your stake



What's that you said to me

The moment dies

Degrees of sanity

All alone

Lost unknown

And whispered in our sighs



And in the dark it all unwinds

I pray for change

The kiss of time

And in my thoughts

I sit and dwell

The labyrinth's there

I know it well



What's that you said to me

The moment dies

Degrees of sanity

All alone

Lost unknown

And whispered in our sighs



And all the things you never heard

While in my mind I search for words

But time was lost

The curtain fell

I take my bows and wish you well



What's that you said to me

The moment dies

Degrees of sanity

All alone

Lost unknown

And whispered in our sigh

He was standing all alone

Trying to find the words to say

When every prayer he ever prayed

Was gone

And the dreams hes never owned

Are still safely tucked away

Until tomorrow he just

Carries on

See the Devil in the streets at night

See him running in the pouring rain

See him grinning Rneath a twisted light

Ill be back again

See the people standing in a row

See them nodding like a field of grain

No one sees the sickle though

Coming Rcross the plain

And this he knows if nothing more

That waiting in the dark like destiny

Are those who kissed the dogs of war

And there is no tomorrow

No tomorrow

Take a chance

Take a chance

See the Devil he is so intense

See the Devil go and change his name

Whats the going price of innocence

It cant be the same

Is it dark when the moon is down

Is it dark with a single flame

If theres glass falling all all around

I am not to blame

And this he knows if nothing more

That waiting in the dark like destiny

Are those who kissed the dogs of war

And there is no tomorrow

No tomorrow

Take a chance

Burn the night away

Pictures at an exhibition

Played as he stood his trance

Staring at his inhibitions

All the time believing

That it now came down to nothing but this chance

I fear you

Your silence

Your blindless

See what you want to see

In darkness

One kindness

One moment

Tell me what you believe

I believe in nothing

Never really had to

In regards to your life

Rumors that are not true

Whos defending evil

Surely never I

Who would be the witness

Should you chance to die

Father can you hear me

This is not how was meant to be

I am safe and so are you

As for the others destiny

I believe that situations

All depend on circumstance

Look away

Look away

Pictures at an exhibition

Played as he stood in his trance

Staring at his inhibitions

All the time believing

That it now came down to

Nothing but this chance

So after all those one night stands

You've ended up with heart in hand

A Child alone

On your own

Retreating

Regretful for the things you're not

And all the things you haven't got

Without a home

A heart of stone

Lies bleeding



And for all the roads you followed

And for all you did not find

And for all the dreams you had to leave behind



I am the way

I am the light

I am the dark inside the night

I hear your hopes

I feel your dreams

And in the dark I hear your screams



Don't turn away

Just take my hand

And when you make your final stand

I'll be right there

I'll never leave

And all I ask of you

Believe



Your childhood eyes were so intense

While bartering your innocence

For bits of string

The grown-up wings

You needed



But when you had to add the up

You found that they were not enough

To get you in

Pay for sins repeated



And for all the years you borrowed

And for all the tears you hide

And for all the fears you had to keep inside



I am the way

I am the light

I am the dark inside the night

I hear your hopes

I feel your dreams

And in the dark I hear your screams



Don't walk away

Just take my hand

And when you make your final stand

I'll be right there

I'll never leave

And all I ask of you is

Believe



I never wanted to know

Never wanted to see

I wasted my time

Till Time wasted me



I never wanted to go

I always wanted to stay

'Cause the persons I am

Are the parts that I play

So I plot and I plan

And I hope and I scheme

To the lure of a night

Filled with unfinished dreams

And I'm holding on tight

To a world gone astray

As they charge me for years

I can no longer pay



I am the way

I am the light

I am the dark

Inside the night

I hear your hopes

I feel your dreams

And in the dark

I hear your screams



Don't turn away

Just take my hand

And when you make your final stand

I'll be right there

I'll never leave

And all I ask of you...



Believe...

You were never one for waiting

Still I always thought you'd wait for me

Have you from your dreams awakened

And from where you are what do you see



Which of us is now in exile

Which in need of amnesty

Are you now but an illusion

In my mind alone you breathe



You believed in things that I will never know

You were out there drowning but it never showed

Till inside a rain swept night you just let go



You've thrown it all away

And now we'll never see

The ending of the play

The grand design

The final line

And what was meant to be



In the dark a distant runner

Now has disappeared into the night

Leaving us to stand and wonder

Staring from this end into your life



You believed in things that I will never know

You were out there drowning but it never showed

Till inside a rain swept night you just let go



You've thrown it all away

And now we'll never seeThe ending of the play

The grand design

The final line

And what was meant to be



And if this is an illusion

Nothing more than pure delusion

Clinging to a fading fantasy



Like Icarus who heeds the calling

Of a sun but now is falling

As the feathers of his life fall free

Can you see

See



Tomorrow

And after

You tell me what am I to do

I stand there

Believing

That in the dark

There is a clue



Perhaps inside

This midnight sky

Perhaps tomorrow's new born eyes

Or then again

We'll never know

And after all

This was the show



What am I to do



Gotta get back

Gotta get back

Gotta get back



What am I to do



Gotta get back

Gotta get back

Gotta get back



What am I to do



Standing on a dream

Isn't what it seems

Could wethe reclaim a dream refused

Knowing what we know

Could we let it go

Realizing that all the years are used



Tomorrow

And after

You tell me what am I to do

I stand here

Believing

That in the dark

There is a clue



I am the way

I am the light

I am the dark inside the night

I hear your hopes

I feel your dreams

And in the dark I hear your screams



Tomorrow

And after

You tell me what am I to do

I stand here

Believing

That in the dark

There is a clue...